It's always a matter of perspective. Our level of gratefulness towards this life is decreasing day by day. You might have no idea how many people out there, would love to have yours.. No matter how good or bad your life is, just remember that you still have countless reasons to be thankful for.

The choice is yours to make..

Be grateful now or regret later

the struggles. I understand the struggles that we all are currently in because believe me, I'm right there with you.

our age is the phase where people called it 'young-adult' which is a literal meaning of a transition from a young person to an adult, a real grown-up adult. and to break it down to you.. 'adulting' is as difficult as it can get. like seriously, how are we all supposed to find the right way? the right way that is designated for each and every one of our own. how are we all supposed to find a job we love, make enough money to live, find people that we love and live in a place we also love? all. at. once??????????? (can you feel my frustration by the number of question marks)

it's scary, intimidating and feels almost impossible.. to be brutally honest. 

but here's the thing; i guess it's meant to be difficult. it's supposed to feel scary and intimidating. you're supposed to be lost. this is your time to be lost and do all the things you want before you came to find the 'right' way, your own way.

there are no rules that stated you have to have everything right now, right?
society makes us all feel like we need to have everything right now. that we need to hurry because if we don't we're going to be left behind everyone else. yes, sure we do need to hurry in order to have a good future, a future that you want. 

but, 
we keep forgetting to live in the now,
at the moment we are all currently in.

deep down into the vast ocean,
what do you see?
for me, the endless stream of colours
that you bring to my sea.

up above in the blue sky,
what do you hear?
for me, the chorus of melodic singing
that you brought me here.

you are my safety zone..
no matter where i roam
my one and only home
and for you, i write this poem.

I hang on to the hope that is woven through your words
but the key to that hope has been thrown in the water of my tears, in which I drown
not only physically but I'm emotionally drained
my heart pounds with too much uncertainty
where do I find that glimmer of hope?
the one that could stop my whole word before it plummets
into a deep despair

It's been almost a year since I've written something on this blog. well, I guess I should make a regular routine out of it and set a specific time to write. At least I have to do it every week or in every 3 days if I didn't have a lot going on.

you know one of the days where you feel like writing your thoughts out loud? in order to not just live it up in your head.. hence, it's the reason why I'm currently here, writing on this blog.
I think this surely could help me ease up my mind and organize the jumbled thoughts in my head.

here's the thing.. I'm actually afraid of getting locked in, having no way out and being stuck to some things for life. it's an unfathomable feeling and pretty much applicable to everything.

we have a profound desire for freedom.

but here's a fact:
life is unpredictable. If it's life, it's unpredictable.

I realized that if I wanted to live the way I wanted, I had to give up a particular outcome because you have to choose one way to cross, to live.